Yolanda, of course it is God’s will for your marriage to be restored. I believe you both need to see a counselor. I know sometimes it is hard to go to someone at your own church so maybe you should find a counselor at another location and have a 3rd party mediate this.
God bless you and praying for you
Also praying for the restoration of your marriage Everett & Freda. See if you can find an older Christian couple in your church that can act as mentors.