I just need prayer, the state has come into the home and they want me to go to a shelter instead of just arresting my husband. We have four teenagers, we are all believers. I was thrown into a dresser, Ive been severely emotionally abused as well as mentally. He doesn’t pay the bills real well, and feels like everything is everybody elses fault. He tries to beat our 14 yr old son, so I interfere because my husband goes over board and I just don’t know what to do. Ive tried leaving several years ago and he has threatened to kill me, take the kids and never let me see them and Im just sick to death. The stress has caused me to disassociate a year ago for 6 months. I hate this man and I just don’t know what to do with this feeling. I want him out, gone, disappeared. I can work but he wont allow me. He shows up at my jobs and gets me in trouble or fired. I feel like I am being punished by God and I am sick of religion. I feel like God hates me to keep me in this situation. Im hopeless. Thanks for praying, I probably wont check back here, I just need prayer.