Hello. We have recently become foster parents when we were basically planning our retirement. We have been tgthr for almost 13 years, and I am 52 and he is 55. We have a 10 year plan, which has now completely changed and I seem to becoming more and more bitter, short, grouchy, rude, hard to be around, and essentially angry that we most likely won’t be doing the things we had been planning on. My partner’s great niece, who he doesn’t even know, was basically dropped off after he was the last option to fill out the paperwork and take her. Since I have 2 grown daughters, I seem to know the most, and I have been helping out ALOT! Basically everything as far as baths, hair, Story time, getting ready for the day, making dinner now for a child, etc. The 4 year old’s parents are strung out on drugs and their daughter was taken away from them, and in the Native American culture she had to be placed with family, and we were the only stable, sober, solid option, and we couldn’t say no to that poor little girl. But I have so much resentment and fear and anger and I am not sure if I want to do this. This will be at least 2 years and I’m already exhausted. Visitations where parents aren’t showing up, crying at bedtime, separation anxiety, and a variety of behaviors we’re struggling with. Please pray for me. I know I am doing the Lord’s work and this is part of His plan, but I need this anger and constant rude behavior to go away. I’m gentle with her 75% of the time, and then very snippy and impatient the other part. It’s my partner I’m having troubles with. I’m now just a Mom figure and not his “love” anymore it seems. Every minute of every day is revolves around the child.