I am so depressed. My prayers seemed unanswered. I am very weak, that I couldn’t think clearly. I was so devastated. I don’t what my direction in life would be. It seems like God is so distant. I don’t want to say this but for some reasons, I wonder if God really exist, I couldn’t contain my emotions. I feel so restless that I just wanna die and end my life. I want to end the pain, but I couldn’t because I still fear God. Deep in my heart I still hold onto faith that He does everything for my own good. But, on the other side, I feel so down. I cried sooo muuuch