I need a miracle. I’m at the end of my rope. I’ve lost faith in the goodness of people. I’m losing the will and strength to hold on for something better. I’m afraid to hope. I’m not ok. When will this end? I have no one. If I don’t get a miracle. I won’t be here another year and that makes me really sad. I wish I knew what I was supposed to do. Pray God please have mercy on me! I don’t think He would make a kind compassionate person hurt to the point of taking their life. But, I’ve been at that point for awhile. I can’t stay here forever. Why would he make someone who always wanted others to know they mattered feel so bad all the time? I’m drowning. I can’t explain it to anyone. No one understands. I don’t even understand. Pray God has mercy on me. Why would He want me to end my life?