John,
Hold on to GOD unchanging hand. He will open the right door for you. You will give to the kingdom of God, provide for your family and give to others in need. Do not get discouraged. Hold your head up to the sky and stay on your praying to GOD for others that are in need. Especially when you do not feel like praying.
He promises he will never leave us nor forsake. I believe that with my whole heart. You can find comfort in knowing through all of this GOD is with you John, he will never leave you nor forsake. He is our Provider. He will make a way for you and family. Trust him with your whole heart. Proverbs 3:5 5Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;