Dear Rosemary,
Go on youtube and find “Derek Prince Deliverance”. Follow his prayer points and receive self deliverance from the spirit of fear, timidity, and others. Next, confirm your identity, who you are in Christ. How God sees you is totally different than the way you see yourself. Find those Bible verses. Example, Galatians 2:20, 1 Peter 2:9, there are many.
Forgive those that hurt you.