Thank you for sharing your dream with us. Please take everything that I share to the Holy Spirit as He Alone gives the accurate interpretation.
There is an issue that yourself and husband have been wrestling with. This issue has no power over you and you might think that it still does. I’m not sure if you are a Christ follower or not or walk with God but take authority and declare that this ‘issue’ has no hold on you. It is “headless.” Acts 9:40 may be of encouragement to. Please read other Biblical scriptures pertaining to 9:40 or 9:42 and the Holy Spirit will highlight to you what He is saying.
You are in the process of undergoing spiritual cleansing and renewal and perhaps have been doing this privately. Perhaps, you are been directed to find a safe public group (apartment and public bathroom) to share your struggles and be encouraged in your walk as you go through spiritual cleansing, renewal, and preparation to walk into the plans that God has for you.