Hello J,
It appears you may need to pray more for yourself to forgive, be healed from being wounded, hurt & pain before you can ask him to come back. Otherwise this will happen all over again. We will pray for you but here are some articles that may help as well
https://missionariesofprayer.org/2016/02/john-14-27-prayer-for-peace/
https://missionariesofprayer.org/2015/07/prayer-for-healing-broken-relationships/
https://missionariesofprayer.org/2015/07/prayer-for-healing-a-broken-heart/
