Excellent Renae! So glad you jumped in at the end. There are so many things that we want in life and we pray and pray and pray and hope but we are never getting what we desire because we are not brave enough to do things that make us uncomfortable. You wanted something but you were trying to do it your way (walking around the edge). Most of the time God has another way to get us what we need (jumping in).
Water is the Holy Spirit (Isaiah 44:3, John 4:14) as well as the word of God (Ephesians 5:26). Surrender to Him and he will give you the desires of your heart. Pray and ask Him what it is that you need to do to get where He wants you to be. We already know, by the ending of your dream, that you are going to do it. Good for you! God Bless You!